Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Next update...Haddie Hope

Home 10 months...and she is ALL that!

When I express to you that she is "all that" I mean the "all that" which comes with a bag of chips. From the looks she gives to the swagger of her walk, this girl can exude some serious confidence. For that, I am thankful. Knowing it is God who has given her inner strength to persevere and survive the last seven years of her life. I don't believe that the last seven years were horrible years, but significant pieces were missing that would leave a void for any child.

Upon receiving her very first bag of Halloween goodies.
Her response was, "I don't like chocolate." The giver responded, "I'm sorry Haddie, if I would have known that I would have given you some different treats." Haddie says, "That's okay, thank you". Later we discussed a gracious response would have been a simple "thank you". Yet, she then came home and took her chocolate goodies and separated them into piles for her brothers.
Haddie is a very thoughtful little girl. Looking for ways she can help with such an eager spirit. I have to remind myself when she is always underfoot that she simply wants to help. She is often asking me, "Can I help you?"
Hard Working
Think about where Haddie was 10 months ago. She transitioned to a completely different culture with a totally new language into a strange family, who looks strange, acts strange, smell get the picture. I forget what a short time 10 months is because she has adapted so well. She understands most everything that is communicated. The vocabulary that she uses is really amazing. Some expressions you will catch her saying:
"What the world?" (What in the world)
"Are you kidding?"

"I so exciting" (I am so excited)

Her desire to learn is seen in how she watches people, and her desire to do her school work. Lately, she has expressed a strong desire to do things independently. She took her 2nd spelling test today on sight words and got them all right:

(tag was a bonus word and the "p" on play was a correction of her form)
She has begun reading, which has been so amazing for me as a mom. I have never had the privilege to teach any of my children to read. Seeing that light bulb go off and the sounds connect as they begin to read their first sentences and books makes me wonder if I am more excited about it than Haddie.

click here to view Haddie reading


Haddie's smile lights up the world. I don't know that I will ever meet a happier girl. Dancing and singing through grocery store aisle without a care in the world. Sometimes I have to stop and laugh, and she will say to me, "I so exciting." I believe joy like that only comes from God.


Haddie is not difficult, but there are days and moments that are. Learning can be difficult sometimes. Haddie can hit a wall and shut down if she doesn't know an answer. She can lock up for minutes or sometimes she is frozen for the entire day. Those times can be hard. We are learning to push through them together. I want her to know I am for her, and not against her, and I will stay with her until she gets it. Like yesterday when it took 20 minutes before she could remember when you add zero to a number the number stays the same. Today we have laughed about 18 + 0 = 18 many times, but yesterday when she and I both were almost in tears it was not funny.

But making it...

10 months! Life around here is not easy. Most days bring something that makes me run to my Savior and hold on for dear life, and that's okay because the One that I hold on to is Faithful and Strong.

Psalm 145
9 The LORD is good to all;
he has compassion on all he has made.
10 All your works praise you, LORD;
your faithful people extol you.
11 They tell of the glory of your kingdom
and speak of your might,
12 so that all people may know of your mighty acts
and the glorious splendor of your kingdom.
13 Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom,
and your dominion endures through all generations.

The LORD is trustworthy in all he promises
and faithful in all he does.
14 The LORD upholds all who fall
and lifts up all who are bowed down.
15 The eyes of all look to you,
and you give them their food at the proper time.
16 You open your hand
and satisfy the desires of every living thing.

17 The LORD is righteous in all his ways
and faithful in all he does.
18 The LORD is near to all who call on him,
to all who call on him in truth.
19 He fulfills the desires of those who fear him;
he hears their cry and saves them.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Believe in the Healer

Matthew 4:24
24News about him spread all over Syria, and people brought to him all who were ill with various diseases, those suffering severe pain, the demon-possessed, those having seizures, and the paralyzed, and he healed them.

As you may know, Libi has battled with seizures since she was 17 months old. Unfortunately that battle has only intensified over the last 2 years. By the end of May this year Libi was barely getting through a week without having a seizure. Her last couple of seizures were Grand Mal. No words can describe what it feels like to watch your child seize. It is the most helpless and scary feeling. No other time in life has me crying out to my Great God like I do in those moments.

June 5th, 18 weeks ago, was the last time Libi Love had a seizure! All GLORY to OUR GREAT GOD!

We have full confidence that Libi has been released from this hold of epilepsy. After Libi's last seizure I began to look at each scripture in the Word that spoke of healing. I was inspired to do a study on healing by the staff of New Day, Libi's foster home in China. They had done a similar study on healing and saw the Lord begin to do amazing acts of healing in their foster home. As God began to speak to me through His Word I saw and heard the God who HEALS...not the God who HEALED...but the God who HEALS! Before I began this study I read about God's amazing acts of healing and knew He worked this way in those times for His great glory, but I lacked the full belief that He still does today.

An overwhelming theme throughout these passages on healing is FAITH. FAITH, BELIEF, that God is who He says and that He can do anything! It struck me once again about Libi's middle name, Faith. She truly has been the biggest walk of FAITH I have ever been on yet I saw how much faith I lack. I realize my faith will not be complete until I am with Jesus, but I long for it to grow. I want to believe to the very depths of my soul in His healing power for Libi Faith.

Faith was not the only element that God revealed to me as I studied healing. Because God desires relationship with us, He wants us to communicate our heart to Him. God has given me a sweet example of this in our little Haddie. Haddie will long for something, be it food, or to join an activity, but she struggles to express that desire. As her mother, I long to see her secure enough in our relationship that she will express what she wants even if she anticipates me saying no to her request. Many times I will tell Haddie, "Just ask me..." I desire for her to ask because it deepens our relationship, builds trust, and proves she sees me as the one who can satisfy her longings. Our sweet Savior wants to be that One and Only that satisfies our longings and needs. He will not always answer in the way we desire, but He will answer with the full knowledge of what is best.

I will continue to ask the Lord to heal Libi and allow her the abitlity to walk. I pray that He will cause my heart's desire to be only for His glory in her healing. May He increase my faith in the process of expressing this desire.

So here I sit...amazed at this act of healing in Libi. I recall an appointment in June after her last seizure. Her neurologist felt that we would not be able to control her seizures with medication. Well, medication or not, we know who has control, and He I will praise Him not for control, but for HEALING!

. Matthew 17
14When they came to the crowd, a man approached Jesus and knelt before him. 15"Lord, have mercy on my son," he said. "He has seizures and is suffering greatly. He often falls into the fire or into the water. 16I brought him to your disciples, but they could not heal him."
17"O unbelieving and perverse generation," Jesus replied, "how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy here to me." 18Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of the boy, and he was healed from that moment.

19Then the disciples came to Jesus in private and asked, "Why couldn't we drive it out?"

20He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

Confessions of a bad blogger

Finding the time to blog is hard. Many times I have thoughts that I would love to share or updates on the family, but I simply struggle to find time. I often remind myself of the Creator of 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. When I walk in step with the One who has created and ordered all time I can accomplish every task purposed for me. I am not about to say that I do this well, but sometimes, in order to breathe, I need to remind myself that what He requires from me in a given day can be done. If I find that I am overwhelmed and just can't get everything done then usually it is due to the fact that I have taken on more than He has asked of me, or walking in my own strength.

"Splendor and majesty are before Him;

Strength and joy in His dwelling place."

1 Chronicles 16:27

My goal is to "catch up" on our blog. To try to catch up in one post would, in fact, be overwhelming and I will strive to bring snippets of what our Mighty God has been up to in our lives. My purpose is to testify of God's work in our family with hope that He will be seen above all and hearts find encouragement to love Him more.
Stay tuned for the next post of the greatest work of our Mighty God in the last 4 months!!!!!